Becoming Shameless

by Carlee Hulsizer

Hey friends, Carlee here. I’ve been thinking a lot about different aspects of recovery besides just not using drugs anymore. For me, it’s more than that. I am in recovery so that I can become the best version of me.

As human beings, I think we’ve all experienced shame and guilt – I know I have. In early recovery I was consumed with it. All I kept thinking about was how terrible of a person I was. Shame kept me from seeing the truth.

Letting go of shame can be difficult, but it is necessary if we wish to move forward. Focusing on the negative things of the past keeps us there. I started changing the way I talked about myself. Instead of saying “I am bad” I started saying “I have a bad disease, how can I heal?” It was only until then that I began to release the feelings of shame and guilt.

If you find yourself stuck in the shame pit, there are ways to get out. In my experience, I had to surround myself with positive people. I cannot stress enough how important it is to have a supportive network of people cheering you on. For me, it was important that I kept these people close because they helped me and continue to help me become a better version of me. Being in community with others who are fighting the same battle is so helpful. I love that I don’t have to heal by myself.

My hope is that everyone reading this will take the next step in their healing process. My experience is not the only one, and I would like to hear from others about what has helped them become shameless. If you have a story or some tips on what has helped you, please let us know and we will feature them!